Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Rock Bottom

I'm at Rock Bottom.

It's not a place, it's a state of mind.

My life has been pretty blessed in terms of Rock Bottoms. The last one I had was 1977. At that time, all I needed to do was get the hell out of Dodge. Which I did, and I slept three days straight at my family farm.

This time I have obligations to other people, and I'm not doing a very good job of performing them. My daughters have had to parent me, because at Rock Bottom it's hard to interact well with others.

I've actually been sliding toward Rock Bottom for three weeks, but I still didn't see the rock at the bottom. Being an optimist, I've been trying to weasel my way out of it and look on the bright side.

Sometimes there just isn't a bright side.

You know who you find at Rock Bottom? All the scary, horrific bored deities who want to devour your soul and put you in some dreary afterworld. Can't even give these Types a graham cracker or a glass of iced tea. I don't want to hang with Them. It's not how I roll.

Therefore I will try to claw my way out of Rock Bottom by petitioning bored deities of every sort to come to my emotional rescue.

Send me vultures. Send me many vultures.


Aquila ka Hecate said...

I send you Nekhbet.
Besides, I just woke up from a nightmare kind of needing Her myself.
Terri in Joburg

Anonymous said...

Not sure how bored Hermes is but he is my number one go to God since he is the God of communication, business and travel (all my concerns seem to fall under that umbrella)I'm petitioning him to come to your emotional rescue (Not the Rolling Stones)

Lavanah said...

I send you the Vulture Goddess of Catal Huyuk, Lady of No Surviving Name. And love, I send you lots of love from me.

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Anne, I hope and pray that you will soon soar on sacred vultures' wings out of the abyss and up into the summer sun. Things will get better. Be it so!

Anonymous said...

I send you Iris on a rainbow with a cup of cheer from Hebe.

(And thank you for your kind response to my rant about my boarding school experience.)

teri said...

Good energies flowing to you. May you soon soar!

BellaDonna said...

I'm staring out my window at work, broadcasting to our local vultures to SEND REINFORCEMENTS ASAP!!


Freya says to do what she does...lay em or slay em.

Anonymous said...

Sending you six golden vultures. The lead guy's name is Floppy -- but don't laugh at him, he's sensitive about it.

Maebius said...

PEace and healing, and the inspiration that if you have hit rock bottom, it's only up from here.
And from that solid foundation you can grow strong again!
*hugs my friend!*

indifferent children said...

I read your blog every day because I think that you have valuable things to say, and a wonderful way of saying them. May the peace and love that you have sent into the world rebound to you in your time of need.

Lori F - MN said...

The chocolate goddess invites you to join her in a cup or bar - take your fill.